Oh my God !

      I  am getting the first insomnia in my life now.

      Passes the long night , and comes the long day .

      Everyday is the same for me , maybe different for me , I don't know.

      There is a old chinese saying : u might lose something  while getting something.

      Maybe I get fewer , losing more.

      But I will feel it deserve to lose , if the few thing is important for me.

      Life is always filled with contradiction , which side u choose depends on different feeling u get , different time in ur life, and  differernt person u faceing .

      Maybe it is idealization . when put into the real world , almost  no one can make the correct decision easily.

      Good memory brings me bad experience.

      Actually , I am a ordinary boy on the earth.